Peace for our Children

The calming effect on the mind of an adult by a sleeping child is unexplainable. Maybe that was the inspiration for the soft rock band MLTR to write the song " Sleeping Child". Its a truly touching and wonderful compilation of all the things a child must be witness to when they grow up. Dont we all want peace and happiness!!!!

But we the elders are lucky in this aspect. We get to watch peace and solitude in the face of a sleeping child and that I'm sure is what we want for our children too. But the question is will they have the opportunity to see a peaceful world?

With the various terrorist attacks and the recent incident in Kashmir involving children as hostages has made me worry about the lives of children who will probably never understand what a wonderful world this can be to live in.

We are all to blame for this. Every issue that is discussed has politics or religion as its base, where is the human element!!! Cant we think for a Man from a Man. Does it always have to be connected with a persons associations and affiliations?

I know I am going nowhere with this discussion, but all that I am doing is introspection of the self. Am I too going to lay back and watch all thats happening around me and make no difference to those around me? Millions of men and women in dire need for assistance in the human form are milling around me and yet I have done nothing for them. The only solace I am getting is from the fact that I have atleast commenced the thought process within me. Someday, and someday soon, I will work to help the lives of atleast a few by making a difference in my little way.

Until such time, let me feel the calm with by watching the child sleep...........

Lessons I Learnt

My friend Jayashree bought me the entire 9 seasons of X- FILES.. That is something i bugged her about ever since she set foot in American soil and after three years I have got what i wanted. :)

This fascination for X-Files began when i was in my eleventh standard i guess... The initial attraction was FOX MULDER and nothing else and I guess that was how i viewe it for a very long time, even after it had ceased being telecasted on TV.

However, and believe me what I am going to say might seem stupid, I learnt something quite valuable from the serial. The pursuit of something that one really believes in and not stopping until you knw that the end has come.

The end, mind you, maybe good or bad, but heart of hearts the person who truly looks for answers or means to achieving their dremas, aims, ambitions, pursuits and everything else will probably be guided by someone far above us, to help us realise that we have reached the end of the long and winding road.

I am drawing a parallel with myself, because I believe that I know myself best. I have worked hard and I am still working (although not as hard as before) to achieve my undying dream. But off late I have begun to realise that my end is probably getting closer and yet there is a sense of calm around me. I have always got what I wanted, unless I changed my mind about something I desired, and so when my dream of playing for the country came a little closer, I believed that I could actually make it.

But today I know that I wont get there( there is maybe a 1% chance and I have been very bad with probability ever since school, so my guess is I wont play for the country) and that doesnt make me feel like I have not achieved what I wanted. I know and believe that I have worked hard in the limited time frame that I had. Starting at the age of 20 meant that I had to put my ambition on fast track mode and I did. But I guess I got onto the freeway and although I have tried really hard to get back into the highway, I realised that the freeway was leading me to another place, A PLACE WHERE MY SATISFACTION FOR HAVING TRIED WILL ALWAYS BE WITH ME.......

The Week that Was

Its been a long time since I have done this and there is no excuse for it unless laziness can be termed as a reason.

I have begun listing down the list of people I would be inviting for the wedding. There are some names in that book for whom I have scant respect and in my second round of filtering I will certainly remove most of them. The reason is not because I want to cut down on the numbers, not at all, for me its important that those who come for the wedding actually wish me well and not have an iota of jealousy. One might wonder why the jealousy. Its just that there are a few in this world who cant be happy for others and for me I have alot of people in my cricket fraternity who think that I have got more than I have asked for and that I dont deserve it!!!!!! Yup its beats me too...................

Otherwise the week has been made up of visits to various docs, all for the same problem (in case someone assumes I'm a sick person, in the literal sense!!) and paying each of them a hefty amount. I am kind of getting sick and tired of this, but when i think of Urmi and what she has been going through for the past 6 years, my problems feel like the discarded pluto.. that small..

Preparations for the wedding and also underway. The first purchase was the jewellery. Its a nice piece of work, the pendant. But what was more interesting during the buy was what Aarti (SIL) spoke with the jewellers. It was fun and was certainly a learning experience for me. Quite a few interesting points came forward and everyone of it made sense. :) Good work Aarti!!!!!!!

Next week will involve the purchase of something very very important.. the 'thirumangalyam' and ' koorey podavai', the true symbols of wedding and marriage...... just a few months away.. Am I ready yet???????????????

Back From Mumbai

I dont think to most it would make sense but this is how my mind goes....

The four day visit to Mumbai under the pretext of accompanying Urmi for her IIJS show was fulfilled (no doubt about that i hope) but it also gave me time to spend with my beau, understand the city and hopefully act as a pre cursor to my life there from next year.

When I left from here I tuned my mind to accepting the place as it was. If I was going to live there then I should be liking it!!! There is no point putting up with some place I dont enjoy. Although this trip meant going out, shopping, eating and all that, at no point did i let my guard down. I enjoyed the city for all that it presented towards me. The traffic on the roads, inside malls, the rain, the dust, lack of walking place, Nikhil's friends, his house, his travel to office... everything that i did, I did it with a sense of purpose and understanding and guess what, I loved it :)


I met up with Nikhil's friends one evening and they were all women, three of them to be exact, each very very different in their own ways and each of them made me understand a part of him that would certainly help us both grow. You can judge a man by the friends he has, atleast i think i can. From what little in conversed with them, i know I too can gel with them quite fine. I think thats important for Nikhil that i can communicate with his friends, because they would form an integral part of our lives too.

Nikhil's house...hmm.. I dont know why there was an initial reluctance to take me there, but ultimately he did and I really liked it. You see I need to know his life as a bachelor and what he will be after the wedding on the home front too :) So thanks for taking me there. You have a cute house. This brings me to the topic of his room mate. Guess one reason why they do get along well with each other is, neither interferes in the others way of life and work, while they join together for things they need to do together. They had a good living understanding.

Well, four days of fun, understanding (tiny argument) and enjoyment. I had a lovely time.... :)