Why is that when we are 18 or 20 we feel that the world is at feet and the minute we turn 30 the attitude becomes one of finding answers in this unfair world!!! Why do so many doubt come up in our minds or is it just mine? Can I find answers or am I better off leaving question unanswered?
The other day I saw a 20 odd something guy on the road walking with not too many concerns and my thoughts went back to when I was 22 and had no responsibilities and what I wanted to do was invariably what I'd end up doing, which would was met with quite a few objections from you know who. :) Today I wonder if I should have listened to my parents and would have my life been any different from what it is today. Considering we don't really have too much control about our future does it mean we don't give it a thought when the right people advice you about what to do and what not to do?
However there are many who are burdened with multiple responsibilities even when they are young and have coped up with aplomb and they have my respect and admiration. But the lack of responsibility that I am implying is in the mind. No bills to pay, no price rise to worry about and to imagine that fuel was meant to be wasted by riding around the city under the blazing sun, availability of vegetable was immaterial let alone the cost of veggies. And all this seemed like yesterday???? Where have those days gone, they are certainly not going to return and that is a truth that I have to accept whether I want to or not and I'd better do it quickly because the outside world of economics is catching up with all of us and that too at the speed of light!!
Does this mean I should have led life differently back then or I am I a content person? I am sure I will be contradicting myself a million times when I try to find answers to this question and that is what is expected too.
Now that I have a child questions arise as to how am I going to handle her when my role is reversed. Do I inform her about all the problems that the world is facing and sensitize her to that as she grows up or do I have to let her learn by herself. I see parents who seem to connect so well with their kids, will I be one of them? Or will I have a totally different strategy and yet gain her confidence as she grows and experiences all the ups and downs that life has to offer? As I said earlier we have no control but all that I can hope and pray for is that I don't lose control.
When I started writing this blog what I wanted to write was totally different and what I have ended up writing is very different but they are my open thoughts nonetheless and if I have confused the reader I am not going to apologise for this exactly the person I am today, confused but relatively sane!!
The other day I saw a 20 odd something guy on the road walking with not too many concerns and my thoughts went back to when I was 22 and had no responsibilities and what I wanted to do was invariably what I'd end up doing, which would was met with quite a few objections from you know who. :) Today I wonder if I should have listened to my parents and would have my life been any different from what it is today. Considering we don't really have too much control about our future does it mean we don't give it a thought when the right people advice you about what to do and what not to do?
However there are many who are burdened with multiple responsibilities even when they are young and have coped up with aplomb and they have my respect and admiration. But the lack of responsibility that I am implying is in the mind. No bills to pay, no price rise to worry about and to imagine that fuel was meant to be wasted by riding around the city under the blazing sun, availability of vegetable was immaterial let alone the cost of veggies. And all this seemed like yesterday???? Where have those days gone, they are certainly not going to return and that is a truth that I have to accept whether I want to or not and I'd better do it quickly because the outside world of economics is catching up with all of us and that too at the speed of light!!
Does this mean I should have led life differently back then or I am I a content person? I am sure I will be contradicting myself a million times when I try to find answers to this question and that is what is expected too.
Now that I have a child questions arise as to how am I going to handle her when my role is reversed. Do I inform her about all the problems that the world is facing and sensitize her to that as she grows up or do I have to let her learn by herself. I see parents who seem to connect so well with their kids, will I be one of them? Or will I have a totally different strategy and yet gain her confidence as she grows and experiences all the ups and downs that life has to offer? As I said earlier we have no control but all that I can hope and pray for is that I don't lose control.
When I started writing this blog what I wanted to write was totally different and what I have ended up writing is very different but they are my open thoughts nonetheless and if I have confused the reader I am not going to apologise for this exactly the person I am today, confused but relatively sane!!
